Pushing
It’s Monday afternoon and time for lunch. I am pushing myself forward today. I have to work, create, write, call, envision, lead, communicate and love people. Shouldn’t I say, ‘I get to…’ do this, not ‘have to.’
I think I said “have to” because I am operating on strength not inspiration or motivation. In the overall scheme of things I feel privileged and happy to be able to live my life, be creative, produce thought that teaches and helps and to love people. I think that is my favorite part – loving people.
I am so much in love with people right now that it hurts me to not be able to love on them all. I am not going to worry about it though, just enjoy the ride. In the meantime, I do enjoy having friends, acquaintances, companions and buddies to do things with.
Today, I awoke around 7:20am with a vision for the day. I am accomplishing that vision. This blog was not a part of it, but I am encouraged to write right now. I want to be, not just do. I feel I have been wasting time but this divorce and the aftermath have put a severe damper on my soul, so maybe it is just the way things go in this place. I don’t know, I have never been here before.
Anyway, I am pushing myself to be in the flow. Why? If I did not do that, I would stay in bed and sleep all day and I cannot do that to myself – I would feel horrid. So, I write, create, vision and pray and then let that flow to the people I serve and love. We are a wonderful community and I am excited about our future.
So, if you have any words that will push and motivate and inspire… help me out here! : )
My quote for today that was sent to me is this – “Energy and persistence conquers all things.” It kind of reminds you of the story Jesus told about the widow and the unjust judge in Luke 18. She just would not give up being heart and getting justice. FInally, the judge, weary of her continual visits and pleading her case, granted her her desire. Jesus said to let that teach us to ‘always pray and never give up!’ Energy and persistence (pushing) pays off in the end!
Hey Friend, I can’t begin to express my feelings of how sorry I am for your loss. I know I haven’t been a very good friend at all, but want you to know I am thinking and praying for you all. The struggles you face are huge, but I am confident that the Lord will bring you to a much higher place. Rest in Him. Guess I know why the Lord prompted me to look at your blog today. Wish I would have done so earlier. Take care and know I am thinking of you.